Only one life.

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        Gosh it's been a while since I blog. Somehow it's hard to manage a blog without giving it a momentary silence. Well, since I got free time and I am waiting for my drama to load, why not blog? Hahaha.
         Recently, because of my dramas especially I Hear Your Voice (fyi not a horror drama) and Suits I haven't been having a consistent sleeping hour. Because of assignments and exams, I missed out on a LOT of good dramas and finally now that it's the FIRST semester break that I ain't working, I'm trying to make full use of my holidays by finishing everything before I am back to uni again. So most of the time I sleep at 5am and wake up at 1pm. I know, my bio-clock is completely messed up now. I didn't think much of it until a few nights ago. Been having headaches for the pass 3 days and it could have been me sticking to the computer most of the time, but suddenly at 4am I thought to myself what if this could be my last night? What if I would never wake up from my sleep again? Sleep is important. Heck, i even did a presentation of how lack of sleep could KILL A PERSON. 

           So yeah at 4am, it dawn upon me, what if all these late night sleep could be the cause of my death? I heard so many deaths of others that there was no explanation and they just drop dead without any warning. I mean, I don't wanna die without any reason or by sudden. I don't want to leave the world without saying my goodbyes. Anyways since that night, I told myself. No more staying online or using the computer up after 12am. By the strike of 12, I should be off to bed. I know it seems over dramatic but someone once dear passed away due lack of rest and one day he just collapse. It left our entire family in shock. It happened when I was too young to understand and mom told me that incident a year back. He was around my age when he passed away. 

         I don't want to die because of a selfish act of mine by not taking care of my own body. I don't want to leave my family and bring cause their emotional and finance worry (fyi a funeral is very costly if you don't know). Besides the funeral cost, if I do die now (it is just an illustration, don't take it to heart) the money my parents have paid for my education would be gone for nothing. So yeah, I am gonna take life seriously. You only got one life. To some, this might be just some other dramatic post of how a teenage girl should watch less korean drama but hey do you have any habits that could possibly kill you if you prolong it?

        Don't DO STUPID STUFF. To those that ever hurt yourself or thought of hurting yourself, STOP. You are worth so much more than to be suffering in your pain alone. You think that no one cares or that your family would be better without you? LIES. It would only hurt the ones close to you even more.

If you feel like you can't handle it anymore do these 3 steps, it worked for me and I hope it would calm you down when ever you are facing a tough situation:

1. Take a 10 sec count and just breathe in and out.
2. Pick up the phone and call your closest friend, talk to someone you trust or a family member
3. Sleep.

The reason why I say sleep is because, at that time all your emotions could be flooding you at once and as humans, when we feel like we can't handle it, we might start to think/do rash things that we would regret later. So the best solution and fasted method to distress is to sleep. It helps calm my body and mind. When I am awake, I get to think with a clear mind and without feeling overwhelm.

          When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that He is pleased with me and say good and faithful servant. If you think there is something that you should change or many your attitude towards others, remember it's not to late. After a few years of being hateful to someone, I recently just realize how stupid I was to even hate the person in the first place. Remember don't be concerned with others not appreciating you, but be concerned about you not appreciating others.

          I really thank God for church and the youth group. Honestly without them, I think I would have gone wild or messed up real bad with my life. Appreciate those who actually take time to talk to you or asked about your day. Very few people would actually want to know how you have been. So if someone does ask you, ask about theirs as well. Who knows, you could have made that person's day by even showing interest in their life :)

Anyways hope I didn't scare you all, here is one of my favourite songs to hear :)
More Than by The Ming Thing

Remember to live life to the fullest :)

        love. laugh. enjoy 
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Jess is an adventurous Malaysian girl with a soft spot for food, shoes and all things romantic. She loves fashion and traveling too. Diversity excites her, therefore she would tend to try out everything she gets a chance to ✌

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