Digging Deep

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do NOT continue reading this if you are not open to reading about Christianity
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This is an overdue post, so bear with me :)

LAST WEDNESDAY :  The King of Fruits

Oh wednesdays, how I am slowly looking forward to it. Never knew that Sunway Cell could have such an impact on me. Slowly bit by bit, everyone sort of seem like family now. We get to worship together, discuss about a topic and actually get to debate about it if there is a point, ask questions if we don't understand, encourage one another, care for one another, worry about one another and in the end, we have our meal after the entire cell. It's one of the best place where I can say that I am growing spiritually, besides camp and all, regular cell group is what we all need to just come together and recharge ourselves. 

Got the honor to lead cell on Wednesday and boy, was it scary. Everyone was just so quiet and serious, maybe it was due to everyone being tired from exams, classes and assignments. But in the end, Jared told me how glad he was that I told my experiences of feeling trap as a Christian at times. If you all are wondering, the topic that I co-leaded with Jacintha was, "Christianity is a Straitjacket" based on Tim Keller's Reason for God. It is seriously a good read and it help me challenge some of the doubts that I had before of some issues and made me realize that its just the world pressuring us think like the way they do. 

I am not sure about how you all are during your walk with God but there are times where I just wish that I wasn't a Christian. I always felt that I should be following a set of rules and should watch what am I doing or saying. Honestly, there are a lot of times where I wish I could just give it all up and not be bother with everything. However, after reading chapter 3 where they talked about and against Christianity is a straitjacket, it made me understand how at the end it could be me that was changing. Sure there are some rules that I am expected to follow as a Christian but honestly, without the rules, I think I would not do them with or without being told. Like having sex before marriage. This is a personal stand that I have told myself since I was 15. No disrespect to those that have done it, we all have different opinions and are free to make them. Anyways, without being told not to have sex before marriage, I know I wouldn't even do it. I am not like a super human that can withstand all temptation and be perfect. I mean, temptation is everywhere, and so is pressure. Knowing that almost everyone is doing it and people labeling abstinence weird can be lonely and embarrassed at times. But hey, call me old school but I would really like my first to be my last. Plus, it's weird to do it with someone and then just break up in the next couple of months. A normal break up is already hard enough handle but a break up knowing that you gave your virginity to your ex can be really crush your heart and maybe your self value. So instead of going through the entire cycle, it's best to just wait. Gosh never expected this to be so personal. But yeah, looking in my life, I think I can say now that I have no regrets being a christian, I think without it, I wouldn't be the person I am today. Through this journey I made many treasured friends, experienced pain, learn my self value, how to be a friend and how to care for one another. I think without God and the wonderful FGT church, I wouldn't be this self-driven lame talkative person. Each person I met in my life have actually taught me a great deal of stuff. Young or old, thank you for just being there for me.

Anyways, to know more about what I am saying, go and read the book. 
I might just buy it today since there is no 365 :)

Anyways so after co-leading cell, we had DURIAN and guess what? It was a DURIAN BUFFET. Kinda sick of durians now. I think ate 25-30? I know that Jared ate more than me. So at least I didn't eat like a pig. FYI that was our dinner, so i think that we are all excused to munch on the massive amounts of durians.

This was the start of the buffet
Should have took a picture of all the durians we had.
But my hands were too smelly to even bother

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Jess is an adventurous Malaysian girl with a soft spot for food, shoes and all things romantic. She loves fashion and traveling too. Diversity excites her, therefore she would tend to try out everything she gets a chance to ✌

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